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|Tuesday, February 25th, 2003|
|OOC note to everyone
Hey... I know I've been slacky girl lately and I've been getting some emails about it...
but fact of the matter is... I'm a real girl, who is in the process of moving...
so until Thursday, my posts are going to be fairly scarce, I'm trying to keep up the best I can, but when you're moving 4 hours away, for the first time, it's difficult
so bare with me... n' I'll be back!
Your Resident Buffy Current Mood: busy
(10 Dead Vamps | Bite Me)
|Sunday, February 23rd, 2003|
Things haven't been so good around here...
Dawnies' gotten quite the little attitude, which doesn't help when all of the Potentials are fighting as well.
I think tonight... no wait, TONIGHT, I am calling a meeting, in my living room, I want ALL of the SIT's there... Dawn, I want you there too... 8pm.
Going to have a little talk, and after this little talk, I don't want ANY more fighting. We have to ban together, and concentrate on what is to come.
Banning together... it's not easy when one of your key players, doesn't even want to make eye contact with you. *coughspikecough*
Whatever... I think I'm going to make a huge dinner tonight, for EVERYONE... I know we don't need to get our minds off of things, but I think in a way, it'll be good to focus on something else... even if it is just food. Current Mood: hungry
(24 Dead Vamps | Bite Me)
|Friday, February 21st, 2003|
I owe pretty much everyone an apology, huh...?
Look, I mess up... I'm really good at messing up... I know this... but Xander, please, get off your soapbox.
Look, I'm not even going to get into this right now... I apologize... I'm sorry. Whatever. But it's like I told Xander... you guys are either with me, or you're not. So we're either going to band together, or you all are going to continue to think I'm a complete jerk. Take your pick, I need to know, soon. Current Mood: indescribable
(32 Dead Vamps | Bite Me)
Sorry guys, I know I've been all... not around..
Just been thinking about everything that happened... what I could have done to get power...
and wondering partially if i made the right decision.
I've been working too... which has been akward... but, I have to bring home the money somehow... especially since a certain blonde vampire decided to ruin my punching bag.
The girls have all been looking at me, almost like they want to train... but with everything with Chloe, and the portal... I don't know. Maybe tonight? What do you guys say? Go do some training? Who is up for it? Current Mood: contemplative
(22 Dead Vamps | Bite Me)
|Monday, February 10th, 2003|
*stretch and yawn*
Hey everyone... sorry I haven't updated in a while... I just, haven't had much to say. And I've been pretty busy with work and Spike (his dreams and the chip okay, that's all... get your mind out of the gutter) and the potentials... slaying.
You know... usual stuff.
Valentines Day is coming up. Half of the people I talk to are all mushy, and lovey dovey... and the other half are so annoyed by it, it's starting to annoy me all the more.
*mutters* stupid holiday
ah yes, but anyway. Now, I'm thinkin'... movie and popcorn. Lazy Monday night. Who's in? Current Mood: lazy
(21 Dead Vamps | Bite Me)
|Friday, February 7th, 2003|
My whole night was spent, trying to track down Riley, and the guys at the Initiative, to kick their ass. Plus many phone calls... everyone kept calling me to see if it was true. That they really dusted Spike.
and to think i actually cried
Ugh! They didn't even call me until 7am to tell me that Spike was okay. What the hell?! Spike is coming home TODAY. I don't care what I have to do... Agent Ross said that she'll release him this afternoon though.
So I called Wood this morning, and asked him if I could be late for work... there were some family issues, and I didn't get any sleep... he told me to "take the whole day" and that "i'll be missed"
huh? Current Mood: annoyed
(5 Dead Vamps | Bite Me)
|Thursday, February 6th, 2003|
*raises an eyebrow*
Did I, or did I not say, that they would lose Angels' soul? Yes, that's what I thought.
This whole thing was a BAD IDEA in the first place.
Then again, I find myself thinking... why should I care...
Then I snap myself back to reality, and think... oh yes, one... having Angelus around, really not a good idea. two... the end of the world stuff... ya know... *rolls eyes* and three... no matter what... it's ANGEL.
As for stuff in good ole Sunnydale... Spike is still... well, not with it. It's been made perfectly clear to me, how much Riley doesn't like Spike, and how he'd much rather see him dead, but that's beyond the point. Just thought I'd point out that YES, I do realize that.
Willow is talking to us some more... which is good...
The students I've mainly had this week have been all with the "I want to ask him/her out for Valentines Day, but don't know how"
*looks around* since when did I become the poster child for good relationships?
ah yes... just so ( holden can make some comment on thisCollapse ) Current Mood: busy
(3 Dead Vamps | Bite Me)
|Wednesday, February 5th, 2003|
I made a decision... it wasn't an easy one... but, it's a decision... and I think it's the right one...
Wood has been acting, weird, lately. Making eyes? Kind of like Jonathan, after the clocktower, before prom?
I'm worried about Willow... she's really upset about all of this... but it wasn't her fault... Amy Madison... I should kick her.... nevermind.
Still trying to get over this cold... would have been nice to stay home today, but since I missed enough work when I wasn't really sick... here I am... so if anyone needs me... gimme a call. Current Mood: blah
(9 Dead Vamps | Bite Me)
|Tuesday, February 4th, 2003|
|just a quick update
Giles is taking the SIT's on a retreat...
They're not too happy about it... but hey, I get the bathroom to myself *smiles*
All will be fine... everyone is freaking out because it's Tuesday... yeah, it's Tuesday, we'll face things, like we do every week, and we'll get thru it.
I'm still at the school, I really should get home... from what I hear, Spike isn't doing too well... chip stuff. Current Mood: worried
|Monday, February 3rd, 2003|
I'd update more, if I had more to say. I've just been working, and listening to the girls while about the "strict" schedule I'm keeping them on. Hey, if it makes you feel ANY better... I've been training more than usual too.
::EDITED:: As for
, Holden, you can take your apology, and well... since there are young people who read this, I'll keep it decent... and just say, apology not accepted.
Everyone has issues, it's just how you handle them.
Anyway... seeing Pike was awesome... I wish we would have had more time, and a better weekend... but he looks great... still the same ol' Pike, causin' trouble... but hey, *smiles*, that's okay.
I have this feeling... it's not a good one. Maybe I just need to talk to Giles, since it's dealing with him? Hmmm... I'm out of work in a little bit... I think I'm going to go for a run when I get home... anyone wanna go? Current Mood: bored
(17 Dead Vamps | Bite Me)
|Saturday, February 1st, 2003|
Sorry I haven't updated much...
and sorry that this isn't going to be much of a post..
I guess I'm just letting you all know that I'm around, alive, and things are well for now in Sunnydale.
Pike is here. And we're all just kind of sitting around in shock, about Columbia...
*shrugs* I have journals to catch up on. If anything really important happened, let me know, it's been a long couple of days. Current Mood: tired
(2 Dead Vamps | Bite Me)
|Thursday, January 30th, 2003|
I didn't even bother trying to sleep last night.
Went out on patrol, without the girls for a bit...
think I just needed to get out some aggression.
Sunnydale has been quiet, which is rare...
and I almost feel like I need to go to LA
just to BELIEVE it.
But, I won't... I can't. I have my duties here..
I told Lorne that if I was needed there, to get a
hold of me, and I'd be there...
I wish I could say that I don't think it'll get to
that point... but knowing Angelus...
It will. Current Mood: worried
(41 Dead Vamps | Bite Me)
|Wednesday, January 29th, 2003|
I can't believe they de-souled him Current Mood: indescribable
(2 Dead Vamps | Bite Me)
One of "MY" students showed me these today... I asked her if I could use them, to put in my LJ, she didn't have a problem...
Just read them, and think about them.( you might like..Collapse ) Current Mood: pensive
I keep seeing his eyes...
it's like a flashback...
and no matter what I do, I can't get it out of my head. It was almost prophetic...
It's just that stare...cold and calculating... but it was ANGEL... it wasn't Angelus... *sigh* I don't get it...
Or maybe I just wanted it to be Angel... Current Mood: confused
Looks like the quiet night in Sunnydale turned out to be
not so quiet.
Dreams were handed out like candy to all the unsuspecting
Spike dreamed of as far as I can tell, Faith, and vice versa. I dreamed of Angel. I almost feel the need to go to LA if my duties here weren't so important...
*sigh* I don't know what the hell is going on here, but I really can't concentrate on work... Current Mood: awake
(13 Dead Vamps | Bite Me)
|Tuesday, January 28th, 2003|
I still can't believe Spike did that...
I said I'd pay Xander back... he could have left it at that.
Speaking of Xander... I love you Xand, but this is my journal, and I do need to vent.
Spike and I... I don't really know what's going on there... but what I do know, is that I'm not going to get hurt, and that I'm a big girl...
I know all of you who say I should back off or something *coughxandcough* just care... and are just trying to help, but you have to let me live my life... we have all made some major mistakes in our lives... but we all have done amazingly good things, to make up for it...
Well I mean there are the acceptions... but still...
*shakes head* I don't know where I'm going with this, I'm so much better with power speeches... I just know that, I can handle myself...
I'm thinking about taking the girls out, tonight. Patrol... a few lessons or so. Maybe I'll take Dawn too... she may not be a potential.. but she's a Summers, she can hold her own. And with Amanda on board now, I think it would be good to get her in the swing of things... Current Mood: busy
(18 Dead Vamps | Bite Me)
|Monday, January 27th, 2003|
Okay, okay... people...
I know I left out meeting Will and Xand
and Faith, and Kendra, and Riley
and Spike falling in love with me
and our first kiss
and the SIT's...
I'm blonde, I'm not completely dense.. it was JUST a
minor recap! Current Mood: annoyed
(11 Dead Vamps | Bite Me)
Like Spike said, we got back late last night...
late enough that I pretty much, got home, showered,
grabbed something to eat... sat around for a little bit
and then came to work.
Which is okay, I slept so much this weekend. I didn't know
it was humanly possible to sleep that much.
I do know that Spikes chip was messing up a little bit
this weekend, he failed to tell me, but I'm not stupid.
I can tell when a metal piece in his head is malfunctioning.
I can't believe Pike got a hold of me (well, he did, in a sense) I haven't talked to him in... years. Apparently
people have caught him up on my Sunnydale life though, so
hey, that just means I don't have to talk about me.
I personally think it sums up well...
Fell in love with Angel.
Angel came back.
(Repressed Memories of Faith)
Blew up the school.
Went to UCSD.
Dawn moved here. (well ya know)
Fell for Riley.
(more repressed Faith memories)
Mom got sick.
(I guess I met Glory and her alter ego here)
Mom got better.
Glory died. (well, ya know)
I came back.
I sang a lot.
Spike and I had sex.
Warren shot me.
I fought Willow.
Well that's just what happened to me, and not really to all the people I love around me. But hey, not bad for a 23 year old, huh?
Principal Wood wants to talk to me... why does that bother me
like it did when I was actually IN school? Current Mood: nervous
(23 Dead Vamps | Bite Me)
|Friday, January 24th, 2003|
Well, as Spike already said, we're going to go away for the weekend.
Now, don't give me that look that I know you're giving me. It's all cause we BOTH need to just get away.
My only worry, something will come up this weekend, but, Xand, and Willow, Dawn... they'll be around, and with the potentials... they should be able to handle anything that comes their way.
*blushes and smiles*
I'm really looking forward to this. Current Mood: optimistic
(44 Dead Vamps | Bite Me)